Oh how true..

ok ytd i wrote bout how things were just going downhill for me academic wise.

well just when i tot it cant get any worst, it did.

a lot worst actually.

u see i screwed up my chem performance task presentation.

as in totally totally screwed up.

i'd be happy to get anywhere near 10/20. and this shit is 20 freaking percentage of ca.

i shan't go into the details of the screw up.

but basically i left the circular area an unhappy, and panick-stricken man.

my ca last semester is 67.4. it's so confirm gonna drop.

sigh.

reminds me of the chinese saying, "fu wu shuang zhi, huo bu dan xing". how true it is.

actually i'm fine with my results, cuz i noe i deserve it, with my slacking and everything.

but i actually do my work properly k.

i jus feel so gutted by the fact that the some people can just not do anything shit but still get away with it, scoring higher than me overall. that sucks so totally please.

and the bruising my ego takes when i get lower than the people who are normally lousier than me,

i just hate it.