Down, Down, Down

ok here's the deal for me now:

everything's just going down.

and i mean everything. particularly studies.

firstly, even as common test draws nearer and nearer by the day, i am getting more and more worried.

but yet, i am getting more and more bochap. i'm serious. i think i have paid the least attention in classes that i ever have throughout my four years in the last 2 weeks.

and the worst thing is, i find myself sleeping, and not only that, something which i have managed to resist for the better part of 4 years. and the worst part is, i really cant give a damn if i just dose off in class. sometimes i simply choose to go to sleep.

secondly, i just freaking realise my results are going down, down, down. with the exception of chinese, which for some reason i did very well for ca this semester.

k let's see.

phys 1st semester ca: 70.5
phys 2nd semester ca: 52.7
?!?!?!
that's a drop from 3.6 to 2.0!! i find it quite unbelievable actually. and i cant find the reasons why i dropped so much, other than the fact that i have decided to do most of this semester's quizzes pretty honestly. tat's counts a lot i guess.

ok that's a classic example. i'm not very sure of the rest of the subs cuz i dunno wad exactly my ca marks are. but i am pretty sure i dropped for hist, math, and chem.

and considering the fact that my first semester gpa is 3.07, and the fact that i will again, screw up my common test, i see my gpa going below 2.8, which wont grant me a H3 subject if i am not wrong. and that's a really far cry from the target of 3.2 i have set myself.

sheesh, i see no bright prospects for me, even cca doesnt look exactly bright either.

my life seems to be slipping into the vicious cycle tat slackers always go thru, and it seems to be going down with no sign of a u-turn.

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