split personalities

slept in today.. but i'm still feeling very sleepy and all..

guess i'd never be able to repay my sleep debt.

well anyways, i realise i have kinda have split personalities.

two to be exact.

you see, in school, in front of everyone, i'm always laughing, being very cheerful and all,

but yet, at home, i kinda seem to retract back into this shell of unhappiness where all the unhappiness and the sadness all comes back.

why this is so i dunno.

but an intelligent guess i think, would be the fact that i just want the people around me to be happy.. as in, i do not wanna bother people with my own problems and all..

i know how it feels like to be bothered and weighed down by other people's problems, and as much as i can i guess i do not want other people to have to suffer this agony, especially if other people do have their own problems.

well online there have been some people, such as larissa (haha sorry!!!) who have kinda been influenced by my sian-ness and all, but i guess that cannot be helped.

so, please refrain from asking me why i'm feeling this way or that way because i wouldnt say it.