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i came home today feeling better, but guess wad..

i walked straight into a war zone between my mum and sis..

and the worst thing is??

there is no one else at home, so i'm like so extra, opening the door when they were quarrelling..

i dunno wad the hell they were argueing about, but i dun give a shit either.

i just do not want to be sandwiched in between,

which is why i am hiding in my little saunctary which is my room.

but i have a feeling someone is gonna break into my saunctary in the next hour.. -.-

so school's screwed up, and at this present moment, home's screwed up as well.

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anyways, yay! talent time's finally over.. (doesnt sound too convincing a 'yay' does it?)

well i'd tot that after i get talent time over and done with, i'd feel really happy, relieved, and much 'lighter', cuz i have finally gotten the burnden off my back.

but noooo, i didnt any shit difference after talent time.

in fact i feel even more sad and irritated and unhappy now.

i'd tot that talent time was the main cause of my unhappiness these past 2 weeks, but apparently that's not the case..

i guess there's other things that are realli bothering me..

went out with choonwing today, talked a little bout some stuff..

i realised,

it seemed like i had the perfect opportunity,

but yet at the crucial moment, i hesitated.

for a little too long, perhaps.

so long that even talking to you now makes me feel awkward.

right now, the opportunity seems lost for good.

or maybe not, i dunno.

i do not wanna find out the answer,

because i am really afraid that the opportunity IS realli lost for good.

ahh, screw it, everything's so screwed up now anyway. -.-"

i have a lot a lot of things to say to you, but i really dunno how to put them into words.